A little reflection of mine

Hm, this post is kinda unusual to what I usually posted here. But I felt like I needed a place to express my inner emotions and I thought...

Hm, this post is kinda unusual to what I usually posted here.
But I felt like I needed a place to express my inner emotions and I thought writing on my personal blog wouldn't be a bad idea.

How should I begin?
I'm at this stage where everyone at my age might have experienced confusion about their future.
Having studied Psychology at university for 3 years, it seems unreasonable to not continue my path as a psychologist.
But when I look back at my academic performance throughout the years, I just don't think I'm that kinda person who deserves to be a professional in this area.
Although I really have some passion in it, I started to have doubts in myself.
Should I pursue another professional Masters degree in Psychology? Shall I apply for jobs instead?
Can I bear the pressure in the job market? Is this it, life begins here and stops till I die?

Really, I've never thought with such depth about my life before.
I have always been a happy girl who doesn't give a damn about anything. Life goes on, anyway.
Maybe time can change a person, and the cruel nature of society do force people to conform.
One has to pay for the rent, raise a happy family, and be successful.
You like to pursue your interest and be an artist or something vague? Loser.
Social approval…how important is this to human?

Seriously, when I make up my mind.. I seem to be good at nothing.
People think I'm good at fashion: I am just a random girl sitting in front of her computer sharing my thoughts.
I don't attend any London Fashion Week, or get the latest designer product information.
People think I'm good at Psychology: I am just this girl sitting in class paying attention to what professors say, and reading journals without skeptical thinking.
People think I'm good at modelling: I can't even catch whether the left or right side of me looks prettier, or pose without the help of a mirror.

Wow, what a relief after saying all these.
I know I sounded like I'm good at nothing here, but I hope those of you who does read my blog irregularly would still show your support to me.
Alas, 'to err is human' - says Shakespeare.


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